Friday, July 22, 2005

Alone on her Bday

Today is Bim's 33rd Bday.
I had a hard time getting up early today. I felt so alone this morning.

I got out of the bamboo sofa at around 3:30p.m. to clean my shoes that I had left soaking in the tub last night. Then I transferred the Poinsettias to pots that I bought 2 weeks ago. The poinsettia's had been in Limbo for a year already.

I went to Bim's at around 6p.m. today, instead of early in the morning. I brought her a dozen red roses (she didn't seem to care at all). Then we went to the new JO's Chicken House here in Davao. The Chicken was not that good. But the interior design was very splendid.

I'm having a hard time getting up and starting my day. I really don't understand why. It's such an ardous task for me. If only...... I could get out of this. Then maybe my whole life would have been a lot more different than what it is now.

After this, I go home to an empty house. No one to talk to, no one to fight with. Simply Alone.
I wonder what the neighbors will think if I start shouting at myself ;-)!

My wife (Bim) moved out of our house last April 18, and last May 1, transferred to a house near our son, Jed's, school. She has had a hard time dealing with my disorder.

I was diagnosed with BIPOLAR Disorder last October 2003. The disorder, left undiagnosed for years, destroyed my simple dream of having a family to go home to till I die. But that's another story, in another post somehow.

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