Super Duper Dumpster

i have not blogged for so long. i was on an extended manic mode. i got involved in nice projects. i really enjoyed working. then suddenly - BANG. i'm right smack on a very deep depression now.

i find it so hard to work. i can't stay on the laptop long enough. i have been crying for so many nights now. i feel so anxious and scared. i really don't know why, but i feel so scared.

earlier this year i blogged about a map to get through episodes and accomplish things i wanted to do, and reach my goals. some where along the way, i lost the map, and lost myself too. i really do not know what to do now.

i will let this dark cloud pass over me. i just hope this darkness will move over soon. the longer it stays, the more tempting it is for me to move towards the dark.

HELP!

in the dumps AGAIN!

I'm down in the dumps again. I really do not understand why. But, I just can't get myself to get things done.

I have this very heavy feeling over my head, and then there is this pain inside my head that feels like stings....

I really have no idea why this is happening. I have so much work to do, and I'm tired of this.

I don't really know now what to do. I was hoping I would be able to get over this very, very, very bad feeling.

Honestly, I'm just about to give up now.....