Super Duper Dumpster

i have not blogged for so long. i was on an extended manic mode. i got involved in nice projects. i really enjoyed working. then suddenly - BANG. i'm right smack on a very deep depression now.

i find it so hard to work. i can't stay on the laptop long enough. i have been crying for so many nights now. i feel so anxious and scared. i really don't know why, but i feel so scared.

earlier this year i blogged about a map to get through episodes and accomplish things i wanted to do, and reach my goals. some where along the way, i lost the map, and lost myself too. i really do not know what to do now.

i will let this dark cloud pass over me. i just hope this darkness will move over soon. the longer it stays, the more tempting it is for me to move towards the dark.

HELP!