Traveling

I am in Cagayan de Oro City now. I'm on my way home. So far so good. I feel a bit better.

I still have a little tinge of paranoia inside me.... but it is not that strong anymore. Some how, I am well aware that the paranoia inside me is just driven by my runaway hormones.

I have settled inside me already the debate between nature and mind over matter. When it comes to hormones that run the brain, the brain is no match..... I would like to find out how to teach the brain to work around hormone driven influences.

This may be the key to helping a lot of others who suffer the same conditions I go through. Looking for that solution will not be easy..... and I can always give it a try.

Hard Rowing

I know I'm headed towards Depression Alley. . . . and I'm heading there fast.

I have to Row as hard as I can to get myself out of that trouble spot. I do hope I will be able to get out of this. Getting into a depression can be a very nasty experience. I still have a lot of work to do. The coming week long vacation will be helpful. I just have to steer clear of drinking and staying out late at night.

This vacation will give me the opportunity to slowly paddle my way back to where waves of energy and strength can be found.

No need for sleep!!!! ?????

I have been wanting to get some sleep. The last 5 hours just went by so fast. I could close my eyes and lie in the dark. Yet, thoughts keep creeping into my mind. The kind of thoughts that keep me awake.

This time, the thoughts were - my new project, my new downloads, my column for Wednesday, my client meeting tomorrow, my out of town trip towards the end of the week, collectibles from clients, and so many more.

I tried to keep them locked in the dark. Yet, these thoughts pushed their way into my consciousness and would not let me be.

So here I am, typing away. I can actually keep on going, but that would be boring.

I'll just end up here for now. I'll put those thoughts in writing some other time.

By the way, I can here the birds singing and the cocks crowing outside.