Back again

hi!

I'm back. I'll strive to update this blog every so often. I really have a lot - i mean a whole lot - of stories to tell this time.

Many things have happened to me since the last time that I posted something here.

Thanks for checking.

Tanking out............. again

I really don't know what happened to all those days. Suddenly it's Christmas and the year is about to end. All I have with me.... again are UNfinished projects.

My mind has tanked otu again. I find it so hard to focus on something.
Every time I sit down to do something my mind just goes blank and then nothing. The whole day just passes by.

I also have this ache ... pain.... what in my head. It's like a swooshing sound or a low hum that has decided to stay inside my head. It has been there since October.

I hope ELECTROSHOCK THERAPY WILL TAKE IT AWAY.

I'm actually tired of this whole thing already.

Research... research..... research

I do hope that ECT will be done this way:
........ and not this way.
I still need to learn a lot of things about ECT before making that trip. I hope Electro Boy will help me along the way.

I am really very tired already of this disorder that's running my life, I want to get rid of this NOW.
I know that its not possible to make it go away tomorrow, next week or nest month. But I am hoping to find a way to reclaim my life from this disorder.
It will not be easy, but I know I will....
...because if I won't, then I better jump off that ledge out there.

I hope to restart my column with Mindanao Times this week. The column that I write is also posted on earthbeat.blogspot.com. My weekly posts will be an indicator of my mental well being.